Thank you Abbas Sir for giving time to my post. I thought over what u said. To let go seems so hard to learn. I mostly take it as a test,, whether i give up or stand firm to my promise of "Never to let her go off". Good muslims fulfill their promises. Allah also says that you will be tested.
I do not know what it is.
If i take it as a test; my courage pushes me to be hopeful.
If i take it as "it may happen that you love a thing that is bad for you", I feel helpless.
Very warm regards.