Reading your post i felt sad.. Your knowledge, wit and personality is truly the work of one who has not only studied the Qu'ran for years, but also one who's worked hard on his personality and developed exceptional personality traits unlike any i've ever actually met irl.
I beg you to not lose composure and patience with those who are still working to achieve similar traits such as myself.
I read pretty much every post you submit to these forums.
While i myself am not a scholar, nor will i ever be. I daily visit these forums in hopes of learning more, and within this is also analysis of the writers.
Loosing patience is close to loosing will and understanding for those who have not yet achieved similar understanding.
While it in itself is a bumpy road, the feeling of succes at the end of the road is immensely rewarding.
I myself know this as a preschool teacher, and i consider you my teacher although i rarely ask the questions!
And you probably hardly realize that i am there!! But i am, and i listen, and i take your understanding into consideration and do my best to include it in my further development of knowledge and person :D
If anything, take a break and then come back refreshed and ready to teach once more.
But never give up!!!
- A novice in the long road of learning.