Your post was interesting so I thought I give it a try to your question.
As say you are an atheist, so that proves that there is a God. Because without God there would be no atheist. The difference between believer and atheist is not that you lack conscience, but rather your conscience inclines you away from God. Isn’t that true?
By the way, are you Behroz Batliwala or Behroz Baltiwala? What’s your correct name, and how do you know it’s your correct name? If you answer it correctly then I may shed some more light to your question. So please do not ignore the question.
Thanks and regards.